fornication and I was dead on earth but the merciful God did not let me perish but
led me to repentance in
1962 I got sick with cancer and I was sick for many years I did not lie down
although I worked and treated doctors hoping to find a cure for the
last 6 months I had completely emaciated so much that I could not even drink water to drink
as soon as I drank it I immediately vomited then they took me to the hospital and because
I was very energetic they called a professor from moscow and they decided to
operate on me as soon as they opened my abdomen I immediately
died my soul came out of the body and he was standing between two doctors and I
with great fear and he was looking at my disease
my whole stomach and intestines were affected by cancer I was standing and
thinking because there are two of us I had no idea that there is a soul the communists
inflated us and taught us that the soul and god do not exist that this
is only an invention of the priests to deceive the people and keep them in
fear of something that does not exist I see myself standing and I see him
again in the operating room they took out all my
entrails and they were looking for the finger but there was only pion
everything was damaged and broken nothing she was not healthy the doctors then
said she has nothing to live for I watched everything with great fear and terror and
again I was thinking how and from where are the two of us standing and at the same time I am
lying down the doctors then returned my organs just as they said that
my body should be given to the new specialist doctors for teaching
and they took it to the dissection and I went to them and all the more
puzzled as to where the two of us are there they left me lying naked covered up to the
height of the chest with a sheet after that I see that my brother came and
brought my little son he was six years old and his name was andru ka andreas that is
my son approached my body and kissed me on the head he started crying and
saying mommy mom why did you die I am too young how will I live
without you I have no father and you died I then hugged him and I kissed him
but he didn't feel it nor did he see it nor did he pay attention to me but
he was looking at my dead body I also saw how my brother was crying after that
I suddenly found myself in my house my mother in law from my first marriage came
my mother and my sister my first husband I left him because he believed
in god then the distribution of my things began I lived richly and
luxuriously and I got all this with injustice and prostitution my sister
started to take away the best of my things while the mother-in-law asked to
leave something to my son the sister didn't give anything but in addition she started to
scold the mother-in-law saying this child is not from your son and you
are nothing to him after that they went out and
closed the house my sister took with her a big bag of things while
they were arguing about the things I saw around us dancing and rejoicing
devils suddenly I found myself in the air and I see as if I am flying in an airplane
I feel that someone is holding me and that
a city was rising naol then I see that the city disappeared it became
dark after that light began to come again and at the end it
completely illuminated the light was very strong and I could not see it I was placed on
a black plate of 1.5 m size I saw trees with very thick
trunks and beautiful variegated foliage among the trees there were
houses and indeed they were all new but I didn't see who lived in them in
this valley I saw lush green grass and I thought
where would I be now if I am on earth then why are there no
businesses factories or other buildings here because there are no roads or
transportation what is this place without people and anyway who
lives here a little further I saw walking a beautiful tall woman in royal
dresses under which you can see the on her toes she walked so
lightly that not even the grass would bend from her feet a
young man who was as tall as her shoulders was walking up to her he had his face hidden with
his hands and for something he was crying a lot and begging bitterly but why didn't he
i could hear i thought he was her son and
i protested inwardly because he doesn't feel sorry for him and he doesn't
core note from everything it seems that this young man was a guardian angel
of this dead woman here we also see how the holy angels care
about us and our souls but we don't see it further it seems
that this request is unfulfilled if death finds us sinners and
unrepentant so we continue when they approached me the young man
fell at her feet and began to plead with her more loudly and
wailed and asked her for something she answered him something but I could not
understand what when they approached me I wanted to
ask her where I was at that moment this woman crossed her arms on her
chest raised her eyes to heaven and said sir where is she going
like this I then trembled and just now I understood that I had died that my soul
was in heaven and my body she stayed on earth then I began to weep and
wail and I hear a voice saying return her to earth for
her father's good deeds another voice answered I was tired of
her sinful and corrupt life I wanted to wipe her off the face of the earth without
repentance but she begged me for her father show her the place
she deserved I was immediately in hell then
they started to r up to me terrible glowing snakes with
long tongues spewing fire and other disgusting filth the stench was
unbearable these snakes coiled around me and at the same time from somewhere
appeared worms as thick as a finger with tails ending in
needles and hooks these entered all my open parts ears eyes
nose etc and so they tortured me and I screamed not with
my voice but there was no nowhere neither help nor mercy from
anyone there I saw how the woman who died from abortion presented herself and
began to beg the lord for mercy he answered her you on earth did not
recognize me you were killing the children in your womb and moreover he told
people you should not give birth to children children are unnecessary
to me they do not exist there are no unnecessary things in me there is everything and
for everyone enough in me the lord said I gave you the disease to
repent but you cursed me until the end of your life and you didn't
recognize me and for this reason I don't recognize you as on earth you lived
without god so here you will live suddenly everything changed and I
somewhere forced the stench disappeared disappeared and the strong smell disappeared and I suddenly saw
my church that breathed the gate and out of it came the
priest dressed in in white he was standing with his head bowed and some voice
asked me who he is I answered our priest you said he is
a charamofai he is not a charamofai but a real
shepherd he is not a mercenary he knew that although he is a small
ordinary priest he serves me know even this if
he does not read you the prayer of confession I will not
forgive you then I began to plead sir return me to earth I have a little son the
lord said I know you have a little son it's a pity for him it's a pity I replied
then he replied I pity you all and thrice I pity you all
I'm waiting for you to wake up from the sinful dream to repent and
come to yourself here now the mother of god appeared again the
godmother who earlier I called her a woman and I had the courage to ask her
is here in you heaven instead of an answer after these words
they found hell again hell now it was worse than last
time demons ran around me with catalogs and showed me
my sins and shouted you served us when you were on earth they started
reading my sins all my works written in big letters
and they felt fear terrible fear fire came out of their mouths
demons were hitting me on the head on me falling and sticking red-hot
sparks of fire and flying around me repulsed terrible
wailing and crying of many people when the fire grew stronger I saw
everything around me the souls had a terrible appearance he was crippled with stretched necks
and swollen eyes they told me that you are a companion it seems that it was
communists and you are obliged to live with us like you so we too
when we were on earth did not recognize god damn it and did every evil
fornication pride and others and never repented those who sinned but
repented went to church prayed to god had mercy on the
poor and helped those in need and misfortune those up there
that means in heaven I was terribly afraid of them
my words seemed that I was already here in hell all my life
and they tell me that I will live with them forever after that the mother of God appeared again
and there was light the demons fled and the souls who
were tormented in hell began to cry and beg her for mercy
rn queen don't leave us here they shouted we are burning mother mother of God and
there is not a drop of water she was crying and through the crying she said while you lived on
earth you do not recognize me and do not repent of the sins my son and your god
and I can not help you now I can not violate the wish of
my son and he cannot the wish of his father I only help those
for whom the relatives begged and for whom
the church prays after that we began to
rise
raising the crow of voices madam godmother don't
leave us again there was darkness and I found myself on the same slab crossing
my hands on my chest the godmother raised her eyes to heaven and began to
pray saying what should I do with her where should I put her a voice answered let
her hair go then the godmother quietly left her door was half opened so that
behind her I could not see anything then she returned holding my hair in
her hands and from somewhere 12 appeared carriages without wheels moved slowly and
I watched her the godmother gave me the hair but I did not realize
that she touched me I only heard when she said that the 12th carriage
has no bottom I was afraid to sit in it but the godmother pushed me to the ground
from her after that I came to my senses and consciously sat and looked it was m0
o'clock in the afternoon after that light I saw there everything in earth looked bad to me
and I didn't like being on earth but what should I do now I told myself to
my soul go to the body then I was in the hospital again and we went to the refrigerator
where the corpses were kept it was closed but I went
inside without any obstacle and I saw my dead body my head was turned a little
to the side while my waist was pressed by other dead people as soon as my soul
entered the body I immediately felt a strong cold somewhat they released my compressed waist
folded I clasped my knees with my hands
at that moment they put in the dead body of some man and when they turned on the
light they saw me bent over whereas they usually put all the dead with their
face up looking at me like that the nurses were scared and out of fear
they scattered they came back with two doctors who
immediately ordered my mind to be warmed with lamps on my body there were
eight incisions were made on it
three in the chest and the rest in the abdomen two hours after warming the
head I opened my eyes and only after 12 days I spoke in the morning they brought me
pancakes with butter and coffee for breakfast it was a fasting day but I didn't want
to eat and I told them I won't eat the nurses left again and everyone in the
hospital started to watch me the doctors came and asked me why I don't want
to eat I answered them sit down and I will tell you what my soul saw anyone who does not
fast on the days of fasting he will eat stinking and disgusting things that is why
I will not eat today as in all fasts I will not
go numb from the surprise one turned red then the other turned yellow and the
patients listened to me carefully then many
doctors gathered and I told them that nothing hurts me anymore then he started to
people come to me and apparently a lot and I telling everyone about wounds
the police started to drive people away and I was transferred to another
hospital there they recovered completely and I begged the doctors to
heal me as soon as possible the incisions they made on me learning on
me then they put me back on the operating table and when the doctors opened the
they told me why they operated on a perfectly healthy person then I asked them
what is my illness they answered me your intestines are healthy and
clean like a child's I told them that my eyes were blindfolded during the
operation but that I still saw my insides in the ceiling mirror
came and the doctors who performed the operation and when they approached said what
is her illness her insides were all destroyed and affected by
the cancer and now she is perfectly healthy I answered them the lord the god
showed his mercy on me the sinner so that I may even live and
testify to others that I saw and what happened to me that lord the god
took what was damaged in me and gave me the son I will tell everyone
until I die then they told the doctor you see how you are laughing and
he replied that nothing was healthy in you what do you think now
I asked him I replied you were born again by the supreme then I answered him if you believe
in him make your cross and get married in the church the doctor
blushed because he was a Jew he added please the lord and god
then I left the hospital I called the priest I used to play with and
attacked him calling him thank you, I told him everything that
happened to me, I confessed and he received the holy sacraments of Christ, I called him
and he blessed my house because until now it has been ruled by sin, pettiness,
drunkenness, mockery and fighting, now I am a sinful branch who am 40 years old with
the help of God and the heavenly queen I live a Christian life I
regularly go to church in his temple of God and the Lord helps me from all
parts of the world people visit me and I tell everyone what
happened to me I saw and heard with God's help I accept them all
I tell everyone what I was before what is happening to me now and why I am
now a believer may it be the Lord our God is glorified I advise everyone
to be careful how they live because there really is another world and another life and
that everyone will give a reason for the his earthly works and that according to them he will have
a fully just reward or punishment and even
eternally may you all live Christianly and by God, amen
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